FreaKing CraZy

Time getting longer i like dont know who am i now ........
like a bird that lost of direction until sometime want to return bck to the pass time
i know time cant be turn back
Izit i already crazy or too bored until like to think too much
could anybody that really can help this lost bird????

Actually i want to talk with some1 that i really hurt last time but i already not brave enough to face it and dnt knw wat to do
but in my heart got many word want to said about it
should i said it or not ??
all this thing alwaz appear in my mind and sometime i can become crazy until like psycho person

i think i try to said some here
actually what i said on that day on phone not all is true
some i had cheated it
just u dnt knw about it
becoz i want u do concentrate on something
and i also want to try to think bck many thing thats why i said like that to u
At here i want to said "so sorry ....sorry and pls forgive what i do to u "
i dnt knw wat to do already i just can said all these here
But what u hav said to me everything i already forgive about it
I knw every people also got their own bad attitude and characteristics
that day i make u and talk like that to u
until i think many month only i find out what i really wrong on

if u see this blog and want to know more deeply u can msg me
but dnt call me becoz when i on the phone i cant even talk a word
i will be like wood and dnt knw wat to said
if u didnt reply me all anything
i will understand that, and i didnt expect what u will do after read this blog
But i just feel more comfortable when i said it out
if not i will alwaz thinking it everyday

Really hope u can forgive it, i dnt want people to be hated me like that

really crazy and angry

wat kind of thing i do that no 1 like me
i hate people that dnt knw everything and didnt know about me
and said something that not nice to hear
u thought i'm wat your enemy or your object to fuck of everytime

if u dnt knw about me dnt said too much
actually u wrong
u more disgusting and more ugliest things that i never ever seen it before
a people like u wont hav a real frenz for so long
pls i advice u go and see yourself in front of a mirror
wat a person u are
then only said other people
not all also like to follow wat u want
if u want a person follow wat u said then better u buy a robot at home and use it as wat u like it to be

THIS YEAR THINGS CAN HAPPEN REALLY ALL DIFFERENTLY

i already long time didnt write my blog.....may be this time i will write it long until no 1 want to read also
i dnt knw why others people can write so many for everyday
but for me not everyday things will happen so special all in the same routine
i already hate to be in the same routine for everyday
nothing i can do to make it interesting to my life
i like to dance but there no time for me to take any classes of dance
my time all is too pack for this nursing course
i scared may be 1 day i will become crazy by study this course
i like a freedom and enjoying lifestyle
but becoz of my parents want me to take this course i cant hav any freedom at all like others having now

sometime i think why god didnt giv me a nice decision for me to hav a beautiful life i want it my own
but i understand why god make all this to me
i hav to work hard to hav wat i really dream of all the things i want

the last half year i really use to much of time to play alot
this new half year i want to change myself
to be hardworking and also can play at the same time
hope i can do it ....

the last half year all things happen in a sudden i also cant expect why all this thing happen
sometime i think back all this situation i really upset and sometime happy
but mostly not happy at all
no1 will know about it
i like to keep in my heart
and everyday bring a smile on my face
i like forcing myself by doing all that
but all this make me grow up
if not i also dnt knw myself is wat kind of person and personality i having
i really hope i can hav a new and nice life going on after this
i dnt want alwaz be carrying all stress and sadness
it really heavy by carrying all those with me
but sometime i cant control myself to think bck all those
sometime i really want to be alone and cooldown myself

dnt knw why i cant continue to write
really hard for me to express my own word
no 1 can understand me
it like a really challenging game for me in this life