FreaKing CraZy

Time getting longer i like dont know who am i now ........
like a bird that lost of direction until sometime want to return bck to the pass time
i know time cant be turn back
Izit i already crazy or too bored until like to think too much
could anybody that really can help this lost bird????

Actually i want to talk with some1 that i really hurt last time but i already not brave enough to face it and dnt knw wat to do
but in my heart got many word want to said about it
should i said it or not ??
all this thing alwaz appear in my mind and sometime i can become crazy until like psycho person

i think i try to said some here
actually what i said on that day on phone not all is true
some i had cheated it
just u dnt knw about it
becoz i want u do concentrate on something
and i also want to try to think bck many thing thats why i said like that to u
At here i want to said "so sorry ....sorry and pls forgive what i do to u "
i dnt knw wat to do already i just can said all these here
But what u hav said to me everything i already forgive about it
I knw every people also got their own bad attitude and characteristics
that day i make u and talk like that to u
until i think many month only i find out what i really wrong on

if u see this blog and want to know more deeply u can msg me
but dnt call me becoz when i on the phone i cant even talk a word
i will be like wood and dnt knw wat to said
if u didnt reply me all anything
i will understand that, and i didnt expect what u will do after read this blog
But i just feel more comfortable when i said it out
if not i will alwaz thinking it everyday

Really hope u can forgive it, i dnt want people to be hated me like that

really crazy and angry

wat kind of thing i do that no 1 like me
i hate people that dnt knw everything and didnt know about me
and said something that not nice to hear
u thought i'm wat your enemy or your object to fuck of everytime

if u dnt knw about me dnt said too much
actually u wrong
u more disgusting and more ugliest things that i never ever seen it before
a people like u wont hav a real frenz for so long
pls i advice u go and see yourself in front of a mirror
wat a person u are
then only said other people
not all also like to follow wat u want
if u want a person follow wat u said then better u buy a robot at home and use it as wat u like it to be

THIS YEAR THINGS CAN HAPPEN REALLY ALL DIFFERENTLY

i already long time didnt write my blog.....may be this time i will write it long until no 1 want to read also
i dnt knw why others people can write so many for everyday
but for me not everyday things will happen so special all in the same routine
i already hate to be in the same routine for everyday
nothing i can do to make it interesting to my life
i like to dance but there no time for me to take any classes of dance
my time all is too pack for this nursing course
i scared may be 1 day i will become crazy by study this course
i like a freedom and enjoying lifestyle
but becoz of my parents want me to take this course i cant hav any freedom at all like others having now

sometime i think why god didnt giv me a nice decision for me to hav a beautiful life i want it my own
but i understand why god make all this to me
i hav to work hard to hav wat i really dream of all the things i want

the last half year i really use to much of time to play alot
this new half year i want to change myself
to be hardworking and also can play at the same time
hope i can do it ....

the last half year all things happen in a sudden i also cant expect why all this thing happen
sometime i think back all this situation i really upset and sometime happy
but mostly not happy at all
no1 will know about it
i like to keep in my heart
and everyday bring a smile on my face
i like forcing myself by doing all that
but all this make me grow up
if not i also dnt knw myself is wat kind of person and personality i having
i really hope i can hav a new and nice life going on after this
i dnt want alwaz be carrying all stress and sadness
it really heavy by carrying all those with me
but sometime i cant control myself to think bck all those
sometime i really want to be alone and cooldown myself

dnt knw why i cant continue to write
really hard for me to express my own word
no 1 can understand me
it like a really challenging game for me in this life

nothing special

alteady so long i didnt post my blog
actually nothing special to post all the thing happen in the same routine
like a boring life , dnt knw when this will end
i want something new and fun for me
dnt want to stay in a boring life like no entertainment for myself
haiz........

bla la la....

already lazy to update blog .......
this hari raya holiday i didnt go anywhere
so sad.....
want to meet my friend also no time
the assignment too much until my head already want to burst
my whole holiday just do assignment
and my group didnt help much just do a little
and the rest let me do they just know how to enjoy only
until i need to do all the assignment
haiz.....
why i alwaz hav a group like that

dont like it

already so long didnt update my blog ler haha.....
sometime also lazy want to update it, many things hav to study and assignment high as hill i really be crazy of all that
dnt knw which should come 1st
and suddenly thing happen again to me
i really dnt like it dnt force me
i dnt knw wat to said already : (

tired (panda)

already so long didnt update my blog it's becoz i were busy these few week and sometime dnt knw what to write also becoz my life is simple and like to be happy whatever happen on me.
that's the way i treat myself most of my frenz they also dnt knw what i'm really thinking about and my feeling too becoz i dnt like to show it in front of people like to be keep it in heart
when i cant withstand i will just pray and sometime talk to my own dnt think it....let it go on

i already many day didnt sleep well 1 day just sleep 2 or 3 hrs and sometime cant sleep also so headache and sleepy no mood. work morning shift also must wake up early walao...until report time also suffer cant concentrate also just fishing there haiz.....
i scared if continue like that i will fall sick then suffer sick again

nw i also dnt knw who am i already like already drink alcohol blur blur de
all my frenz also wat happen to me just blur when do thing haha.....
this month i spend so many money becoz of buying thing for my family
i also already decide to buy some thing to my frenz but i already spend so much on buying thing to family so i wont hav enough money to buy fro them
i feel so sorry to them plz forgive me frenz i really want to giv u all something but i cant
hope i go back to ipoh i have enough time to visit u all
i really miss u all so much

ah......miss u all and love u all too
but hope u all wont forget me
haha..........