FUN IN TIMES SQUARE (1st Of May)

after we arrive times square we then separate 2 group to go shopping
i, adelene and victoria are 1 group the first thing we go to search is a place to eat our breakfast but that time is lunch time we eat late
victoria like to take picture for all the food we eat

we eat at chicken rice shop, this was the set we order
it was delicious haha.......
chicken with mayonise
taugeh that look like ipoh de 'ngah choi kei' but the taste was much different

this was the last dish we eat, before we going back
when i was eating i suddenly saw a worker dancing but that guy thought i cant saw it ,
when i cannot 'tahan' ler i smile at him, he already shy haha......

after we eat our dinner then we past by a shop then we stop at there to take a look
we all saw this shirt and love it we plan to bought it together
we look like 3 sister haha.....
but very upsad was victoria dont want to bought


both of them bought many thing but me just a little because that day i not feeling well
so no mood to many things
haiz.......

i want to thanks victoria and adelene they take care of me when i'm not feel well
thanks my frenz

Problem That Suddenly Falls On Me

today i really so tired until want to faint somemore not enough sleep
when staff nurse giv report i felt sleepy and don't know what i writing just like the whole mind not at that environment
after the report then i go with senior to do our things
i and faster finish our things then can take a short break
we go to have our breakfast when i order 'syrup' the worker there give me 'coffee'
i cant drink coffee start from form 2 but the worker already give it so i just take it
then i sit down and eat, when finish i continue my work to do observation .

after finish all observation then our CI want us to practice some procedure that time i start my gastric paint but just a little so i just ignore it just continue my practice
today have many new admission i take over all the new admission with 1 senior
i learning from senior how to give all the orientation to client and help senior
starting that time i busy until all my friends go for lunch i still doing my work
but i not hungry just gastric paint because already drink the coffee the effect come
after i finish my work they say who didnt go for rest then can go but i not going because i still need to follow senior to do other things, i want to learn from senior so i just withstand all the paint and continue work

when somebody said HR want all morning shift student go to meeting at CI room so i and my friends rush to the meeting because already late
that time i really want to faint ler
but i still rush to the meeting, half way the HR talk someone call then they answer the call and ask who have taken thermometer then everyone check their pocket but i didnt check because that i suffering my paint
then they give feedback nobody taking that thermometer
but after HR finish answer the call i heard God saying something to me
like saying there have something in my pocket so i just check it then i saw that thermometer in my pocket then i faster rush back to wad and return back
i rush the whole way then 1 of the senior look angry and said 'next time before leave the wad must check properly ' that i was breathless and gastric paint so i just ignore her
i know that senior many people dont like her so just take it what she said
another senior saw i was suffering gastric paint so she ask me go to eat something but i still need to rush back to meeting so i just rush back without eat

after the meeting i go to take the bus to go back to hostel
in the meeting i almost faint but i still can 'tahan'


a day that many thing happen on me
i pray to God to help me to release all the thing happen on me from my mind i dont want to think back it make me sad only

today i call my mom and say many thing that have happen
she also ask to go back when have holiday
but i just have 1 day holiday if i go back i will be tired by going back and come back on the same day, so i didnt go back but i really miss my home there no stress and live more comfortable
when talking with my mom i already want to cry but i always cry in front of her
i like to keep it in my heart.....

SIMPLE

this few day was so sien la
dont know what can do just alwaz sit , sleep , and etc..
alwaz not enough sleep.

Other than that i feel many things already have a lot of changes just in this few month
why this generation people can change their attitude or personal behavior so fast like a rocket
hiaz.....
dont know what make them change to become like that
for me a simple life is enough n didnt have many things happen on me
later i will become like them
because my motto is BE HAPPY ALL THE THINGS WILL BE ALRIGHT
thats why if i sad i also will make myself to be happy
dont want to look sad in front of people
when i like that mostly of my friends said that i didnt hav any stress or things happen just stay a happy life, they thing i'm have a better life than them
actualy i hav more sad things happen than they all
they dont know because i wont say it out to everyone just keep in the heart
when i realy can withstand only i will said some to my really close frenz then i will feel better
all my frenz like to talk their problem to me, then i will give some advice or the way to solve it to them but when i have problem i dont know want to find who and said it to who.......

i dont know why i can feel what people thinking
thats make me feel so surprise and so suddenly before that i didnt have this kind of feeling

SAD

i dont like this kind of treatment to all the patient
i cant accept it but i dont know why some of them can do it like that

today i got to sponging one of the patient in HDU, my clinical instructor bring us to there to do the procedure
becoz she want us to practice more so i and my frenz go in there n saw so many old age patient they hav so many tube on their body
i saw it also feel sad to them
they cant move n talk so restless i look at their face i also dont know what should i do to make them can be wake up and walk out from that ward. CI want us to prepare all the things that need to sponging, after finish prepare then i start to do the procedure that time CI walk out so i continue to do.

i started to talk with the patient that what i will do to her, the patient didnt said any thing but she open her eye a while when i talk to her that she is giving respone to me i so happy then i do the procedure gently to her becoz she is so skinny and weak. every thing that i do i will talk to her i know she can listen what i talk to her but she cant say it only, she can giv some response that she can open her eye a little. when i want to sponging her abdomen part n back part but CI suddenly come and see she said i do the procedure too gentle then she take the towel n she do it for us but she do it so 'kasar' didnt care about patient feeling how.
i saw CI do like that then i think myself 'if i was the patient i will dont like they do that on me like this i will complain n scold them' i can see the patient expression that she is in pain but CI still do it like that.
i just follow CI instruction to do it cant disobey or disagree what she do
when i saw CI do like that i feel sad to the patient also feel like crying but we cant do anything if CI need that
i just wait that CI walk out faster then i can help the patient but then CI still there i see the patient is so painful
i want to cry ......
but no choice i must hold my tears
hope that patient can get well faster

more confident

today i learn more thing in the hospital
i so happy with that, this week i get this CI is my benefit lo
she also help me a lot n if i do wrong she will giv some advice then i can knw my negative at where
2mrw i hav to take cross frm CI but CI told us early that she will asked us what kind of thing giv

Today i talk chinese with chinese patient most of them also thought me a malay girl
when i talk in chinese then they will knw i'm a chinese girl
some also get shocked that i can speak chinese

i do afternoon shift today, about 9pm one of the patient need to go to ICU
the patient parents is so many, the patient was talk to a phone that call frm USA
i can see his face so happy n anxiety too
before he will send to ICU
after the patient went out frm the room his family walk in to his bed n packed something to bring back to wash...
when i walk pass by the room i saw his relative was crying becoz scared the operation will ok or not....when i saw that i hav the heart want to pray for them also
pray for the patient will safe in his operation
hope 2mrw i go to ward i can heard good news from him la....
god bless him

day in hospital

nw is the 2nd week of posting in hospital
i feel ok nw the 1st i went to hospital i feel scared and anxiety
i dont know how to communicate with patients
my clinical instructor said i need more practice in communicate
she said me too quiet
i know myself is like that
so i need sometime to change myself
i nw start trying to communicate with patient
some patient also talk with me like frenz
i'm so happy with that but work in hospital was so tired n lost more energy
i didnt like to sleep at afternoon but nw becoz too tired i like to sleep in the afternoon if morning shift, i misssed all my frenz in ipoh
i want to go back to visit them but still hav long time to wait
i missed them so much